Feelings follow behavior

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hatever feeling   you have will lead to a certain behavior. There is this girl who was impregnated by her father at the young age.  She grew up feeling bad about herself. She had low self esteem. She hated her father for ruining her life. She cursed the day, she was conceived and the day she conceived her son.

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eeling bad like this while growing up made her not to love her child. She did not give her child mothers love. How was she supposed to love her child, when she could not love herself?  She left her home when the child was only two months and never came back.

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he decided to come back, thinking that she would be able to face her father, after what he did to her.  She couldn’t face her father.  Whenever she looks at her son, she was angry. She decided to kill her father and her son. She thought by killing her dad and son, would feel alright. And that did not help at all.  She decided to kill herself. And that was the end of her life.

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he felt bad and couldn’t leave with this feeling.  Anger led her to commit murder and suicide.